i'm proud of myself.

I'm proud of myself in the choices that I made with whether to choose Nick, or to take a risk and wait for Matt to actually straight-up tell me he likes me. I chose Nick, dropped any possibility of being with Matt, and I couldn't be happier. I'm not the type of girl that wants to go around chasing after a guy, making him tell me the things he's thinking, and demanding the respect to deaf ears. Matt would have never told me he liked me, I'd never see the day when Matt looked at me straight in the face and told me what he was thinking, that was just never in the cards for us. That's okay, though, we were never meant to be together, and that's fine with me, because look what I got out of leaving Matt, I got Nick. Nick, the boy who I never in a million years would have thought he'd like me, and when he did, I never in a million years thought I'd feel the way I do about him. I think that is because there wasn't a instant connection between us, but we have so much common ground, and even though we fight a lot, we're always looking out for each other, and trying to make the day better for one another. He's what I needed, someone that made my day easier, but never ceased to throw those wrenches in there to keep me on my toes. Our relationship isn't perfect, but that's what makes it real, and it's refreshing to have someone real in my life.